| I said I would stop writing in this xanga after moving to Tumblr. Obviously that hasn’t stopped me from posting a couple things before, however I feel that I need to make this one last post. One last post. This xanga was started during the summer after my 8th grade year before freshmen year of highschool. That would mean this particular blog is roughly 4 years old. It’s accompanied all those four years of highschool, normally dubbed as the “most important years” in an adolescent’s life. Through all the happiness, disappointment, sadness, angst, naivete, etc etc. Well, I graduated highschool three months ago and will start college this fall. I suppose the point of this post is to conclude those four years as I transition onto a new ‘chapter’ of my life. Yeah, I’m that much of a sentimental asshole. In a way this post will act as somewhat of a catharsis of those four years. All the people I met, all the things I experienced and what not. As cliche as the whole “new chapter” and “clean slate” thing is, it’s something I really want to do when starting college. At this point I’m starting out somewhere totally brand new, with brand new people. I can start over. I don’t want to hold onto any luggage from before that’ll plague me for my future. To be honest, I don't think I’m leaving much here behind in Florida besides family and a childhood. I don’t plan on keeping in touch with much people either, except for an extremely select few individuals. I had high expectations for this summer, thinking I would spend every waking moment with my closest friends, soaking in each others presence before we would all depart. But no. My best friend abruptly left the country and many of my other close friends decided that now would be a good time to detach completely. As a result I was extremely miserable, moody and bored (ironically, my last week here had been most productive. Once a procrastinator always a procrastinator I suppose). However there were a couple of pals I could count on to make this summer enjoyable for what it was. In a way this unfortunate circumstance was also a fortunate one in disguise. It allowed me to see what or who was ever truly worth it and from there move on. I’ve been disappointed too many times this summer, too many times I've deceived myself with false perceptions of people and situations and quite frankly, when I think about it now, it makes me feel extremely stupid. I want to forget all of that.
Anyways, tomorrow morning I’m departing Florida. It’s slightly a bittersweet departure but it is what it is…Florida will not longer be my home from vacation, but my vacation from home. If there’s anything I’ll miss about the sunshine state, it’s knowing that I can always look up and see the vast blue sky and white clouds there to always comfort me. Until my next visit, I’ll have to make due with the dozens of photos I had taken of them.. Adieu. 
 
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